This I wrote in 1985

Well... today was my last exam for the week, I did pretty good. I woke up kindda early today, for studying and shit. I studied the whole morning and I fell asleep at lunch time. I went to skul and I just got some Estadistics class, then I had my exam. We were hanging out there, Jp, Joch, Lui, Paul and I... fun times. After that I got this sic class - I hate it. I've been home since 10:00 doing nothing and is not like I want to do nothing is just that I can't do something.

Marina wrote me today... I had like four days without writting, but she's fine. I wrote her back and stuff. I miss them people. That weird feling cameback and hit me right in the chest again... only if I could know what's happening with me. Blah! I'm just talking to much crap... I'm off, bye Mon.

Is there anything left in this world that can satisfy me?

Hello, between the books, pencils, pens and rush... here I am stealing few seconds of my day just to say hi. Without noticing it u've become an important part of me, u're like my release. Love u Mon. Today I woke up really early to study Electronics - yuk!. Like at noon I played a bit of guitar, but then after lunch I went back to the books. My day wasn't that bad actually, just till the moment it was 8:00 pm and the guys didn't want to eat empanadas. I came home and ordered some Calzonni, it was good. ...I lost my favorite pick :(. Must be somewhere around.. but I can't find it.

I have Electrics exam tomorrow, I don't want to study anymore... skul's driving me crazy. At least I think my block thinggie is gone.. I finished what I was doing. I think tomorrow will be quite a hard one, but at least it'll be the last hard day till next wenesday. This weekend, I hope we have a blast. There's this something inside me every night... I don't know what it is... weak and powerless over... no one. Something's missing, but I will go out and find it... place it right there on that empty space. Love u much... goodbye, goodnight.

Dreams of huricanes...

Well, I was writting like 10 minutes ago and I don't know why, but all of a sudden the page just closed itself. I lost everything I wrote, and I don't really feel like retyping. Here's something really quick, yesterday I had two exams and a project to do... that's why I didn't write anything at all. Then this morning I woke up I don't know how... I was tired as hell and the second think I knew after I was up was that Paul and I were studying Estadistics - Akward. I dind't eat today, I just slept those two hours I have before going to skul.

I don't feel much like writing... so I will post something else another latter... bye.


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I have writer's block on something I'm working on... chuas.

Everything You think You know... it's wrong.

We all dance... it seems we are trying to avoid the hits, but now. We're just dancing.
Upset; we were supposed to go to Palmar yesterday, remember? ...well yesterday morning Paul told me we couldn't go because of I don't know what. I was so mad, that I didn't wanted to study or whatever. It was the longest day ever, like the whole morning I just played guitar like for four and a half hours or something. The afternoon was so akward, I even slept like two hours and then I did some homework - like everydy.. yeah. The night was kinda better, Lui called me and we went to Falafel; Jimmy, Lui, Paul, Virgi, Ricardo, this girl I don't remember her name and I... we did. Jimmy, Lui and I got a falafel for each and a service of fries, after that we were just as hungry as before - lol. Virgi, Ricardo and that girl, went home... so then it was only us. We went to the station, just to be arounnd. JoseOscar and Jochy went there and we just crashed to a store and drank some gin for the rest of the night. I was dizzy-fun and I bet everybody but Hochy was too. I heard a lot of stories from the summer, like people drunk and naked @MarioSalami's house in la Romana... hahaha fucking hilarious story.

Today I couldn't wake up for the family meal. I was so tired that it seems I was stuck to the blankets or something. Paulcame like at 3:00 and brought me my *A shirt, we "did" some mechanics - yeah, we "did" because it took us like five hours to get just one excersice done. That's pretty much what I've been doing the whole day... just homework and guitar. Tomorrow I have to be up early... so I' probably must go to bed now. I love u much... moooah!

Shoot me with your sight

Hello Mon... where to start, The show was pretty nice, Agatha is really sweet, Epsilon and Santuario; well I don't know why I talk about the bands since those are bands that I like a lot. We danced a little bit and we had fun. Skul wasn't bad today I just had a Lab, Electric Lab. I saw Laura today, had few days without seeing her - she makes it beat - and I saw Eileen&Mario... :) they look so cute - :P.

I'm supposed to wake up at 7:00 tomorrow and I'm not even sleepy. We're going to study fucking mechanics and then we're going to Palmar... wish us good luck with both things.


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She's hanging there.. .I don't know if I should talk...

Fuck YOU!!! ...we gonna party tonite!

Waking up... I just took a shower and I feel like I still have a blanket on my face. I love sleeping. I was reading some things I have on my email box, like some old emails from some old people... kinda sad. I'm waiting for Polin, since we're going to Palmar tomorrow we have to do some homework to keep forwardtrack on on must do things for skul. So that's it today and tomorrow morning will be really tiring anoying.

There's a metal show tonite... Agatha, Epsilon, Santuario and AltusMortem @El Tunel. If someone ever reads this I hope to see u round there, we gonna dance. I heard nowdays everybody dances at the shows. It surprises me, when I used to dance like three years ago everybody said (well almost everybody, right Joss?) I was crazy. It wasn't till last year when some of the guys got it how it is and they came with tha moves, but yet a lot of people used to say we were crazy. Now everybody loves dancing... ha! - Pure dominicanrocker mentality.

Well, I think that's pretty much everything for now. I'm going to play with Gina now, in waiting for Paul... love u Mon.

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Hello Mon... I'm sorry I didn't wrote yesterday, but Polin was here till 1:00AM and then I went to sleep cuz I was helluvatired. We did mechanics last night. Today I got up early, like at 7:30, I warmed up and then I practiced. After that I switched to guitar, and practiced some of it. I took a shower and waited for Polin that was coming for doing homework. We just dunnoed for about 3 hours and ended up doing nothing. I spent like two hours playing KillswitchEngage - lol - then I ate something. I really have to stop eating, GOSH!!!.

Skul wasn't that bad today, one of the teachers didn't show up, and the other two just gave like half of their shift. I wanted to eat empanadas so bad, but no one wanted to go, so I came home early tonite. After some nothings, I just started to do osme homework AGAIN. It's alright, it's alright... I'm going to Palmar on saturday... should be fun. For now I'm all set, this cat is going to sleep... don't u have a noisy party. Love u.

Hollywood's ending

Today I woke up after a huge effort - haha - it took me like an hour to finally get out of the bed. I took a shower and after that the first thing I noticed was that Mili was here. My dad brought her like at 9:00. I played the whole rest of the morning and after that I did some homework. I went to skul, to be honest, today it wasn't that bad. After skul I went to Friday's cuz Virgi's bday was today and she wanted to go there. So it was Paul, Lui, Virgi, Emil, some other Spitze people, another people I didn't know and I - It wasn't that bad. I got back home after eating a $475.00 meal - Thank You.

...Ohh yeah by the way, I saw a ghost again today; it's like the 3th time since I'm back.

I got this email from Thursday's newsletter saying that they have this tshirtdesigningcontest, I want to give it a try... If I can get some time. I think I'll roll to bed now, I'm kind of tired and I really have to wake up early tomorrow. I think I'm getting better :) :* Goodnite.


Ps...
Virginia, my love... - Friday's on Monday

I'm capable of the kind of love about which only the intoxicated and the California bound can weep.

Hello Mon, I don't remember when was the last time I posted, but I know it has been a whilie. I got an email from Jill yesterday, I was so happy. She said the Bear is not being torn down, and that everybody is on their last days of work. I went out with the guys last night, we drank some Gin and then we went to Paul's - wirdo kool. The day before that I went to this show "Los Perex" release, don't really like them but I wanted to see Incognita. Then we went to "El cuarto" and had a talkie rest of the nite.

I'm almost done with my mechanics exercises for this week. Actually this coming week looks pretty easy - Finally. Is freaking hot as hell, I can't stand it, I take like five showers a day. Mili is coming tomorrow, I'm so excited. Besides that I feel so strange like a huge hole inside... emptyness, maybe. That's without counting the fact that I'm writitng supakward today... like paragraphs have no main idea on their context - haha whatever. That's pretty much everything I can get right now, I hope u have a goodnite, try to sleep.

...when I finish struggling we can make our way to the dance floor and stand like strangers in an elevator stuck between stories...

Breakdancing on the moon

Hello... how was ur day?
Me, I'm kind of excited myself. I'm done with most of the projects that I had from skul, it's friday already, I've been playing a lot. I don't have much else to say... just that tomorrow I'll go to a show and I dunno, I feel like I'll be pissed off after it... u know why. See ya tomorrow, I think I'll roll to bed now... I love u.



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First of all... let me say.. :)
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Carlo Magno died in my arms

Hi Mon... This is the first time this week that I actually have time to write, that's why I've been distant the past days. Skul is loading me up... that's all I do. I can play guitar from time to time but is not that easy for the rest of the things I'd like to do. I can't believe I'm so exhaust already and we're just starting. I've been writting few things in my skul hours, I dunno I just find inspiration between the dumb and the anoying. I'm quite bored of everything myself these days, like I said few dasome time ys ago... seems that everything here's been done.

I went to eat empanadas today, we had this thing and then some of the guys cancelled - I sit and think about it, it seems this is never happening. I just don't want desire and selfbeing turn into a ghost, never want to "grow up". I am... nevermind. Kathy is mad at me I guess, she just wanted me to call Enmanuel and tell him to get online so she can talk to him and I just said no. I hate smart people getting fucked up by blindness that minds make out of love - irrational.

I'm too tired to keep going... I'm going to sleep. Have a good nite.


Ps...
Blocking people on ur MSN won't make them go away to another planet.

Sound the alarm... and make no mistake about this.

Yesterday was like a collage from highskul on a college scenary or whatever. I went out with Kahy, Luz and Dorix... because Kathy was leaving to NY today. I don't know how, but Kathy and Dorix started to fight out of the most akward thing. So Kathy got pissed off and started to yield, Dorix got mad and said some really hard things. At the end Kathy ended up going home and everybody split into their own way, I dunno. I called Lui and asked him where he was... he was at the park with the Underworld, so I just got there and had some fun time.

I woke up today and I dunnoed till lunch, I went out with my family, and we got new shoes for Yeo. Then we had some food. I don't remember what else I did till the moment Paul got to my house and we practically skiped studying. I visited my Grandma cuz I haven't seen her since I'm here, and then we went to the supermarket - hehehe going to the supermarket with my family is fun, I've kinda forgot how it was. After all I came back home and just played guitar for around four hours - which means Gina is happy :). I'm almost going to bed, I just wanted to make sure u know I'm alright. Situations are getting better I think, I can foresee and trace a path to fallow.

About u... I don't know what am I going to do with this thing they call heart... and ur fucking smile.

bye Mon...


Ps..

Love u Kathy... Have fun... see u in two weeks.

Leading a no soldiers army.

Hi Mon, I'm sorry u didn't hear from me yesterday, but I wasn't in the mood. I wanted to go out so bad but I ended up stuck at home. I spent the whole day doing a freaking practice for Mechanics, and after that I had to go to skul and take three hours of electric classes. I also was sic, or actually I am, it's hatefull. Today I'm going to do some more practice and after that I think I'll go out with Kathy or something, she's going to NY tomorrow. She's going for three or four weeks, I'm going to miss her. Even though we don't see each other that often, but is the fact of knowing she's there for me whenever I want.

I named my new guitar, it's funny because I still don't have it, well not phisically. Her name will be Mili, it's the short name for Milikhina. You know where it came from :). My russian friend, Marina, she's going back to Russia today, she has an awfull trip schedule so I hope she do fine.

I walk nude feet on dusty road
the rocks fight my skin
like the bi-zillion soldiers that give it all
without knowing why
behind scenes, the actors chat about their roll
and that who helps...
whisper the senteces we must say
it writes me, it creates the interactive space
names were left behind
lifes as well... we died
the mist, the fog, thick air...
Death is the weapon it used to bring us down
now we walk through a compoud of nothingness
some wear feathered coats
the rest of them teeth, claws and blood stained clothes
and I... I sit and watch from the stone...
I walk nude feet on dusty road
never lead or fallow... side by side we walk

The fourth day of the second week.

Hola Mon... I can't explain today, I'm sorry. Feeling like thousand words to say and can't find the perfect sentence. I guess that sometimes some feel this way and all that's left is to deal with it. It's eating me alive, four months... without feeling this emptyness and now that I'm in the land of owning I.... ...sit and... can't... bye Mon.

You: Something that takes my pain away.

Wow, I can't believe how late it is, I mean like 5 minutes ago it was only 11:45. My day's been really quick today, and I don't know if that's good or bad :S. I made an order yesterday... I sit and try to patiently waiit for it to get here. I woke up early and got some things done, personal things. I practiced the whole morning and then went to school. We ate empanadas and after that my mom got me McD's, haha. My russian friend wrote me again today, it was nice reading about her. I talked to Sabrina today too, she was online all of a sudden.

I have some things to spit out, but I don't know how. I feel like.... blah nevermind about that, I'll just try to forget about it. I've been rockandroll the past few days and it's more to come. I'd like to know about some people I left here, people I haven't heard thing about - Hope they're fine.

I'm rolling to bed now Mon... love u.


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and u... yeah u... ILOVEYOU.

Reduced to me...

Hello, I should say. Today I woke up early, I had to finish some Mechanics thing - Yes, it was due today. I spent the whole morning on that crap. At noon I found out that I had two unread emails from Marina, and the second one was kinda bad, cause she thought I didn't want to reply her emails or whatever, so I wrote her this letter explaining my lacking of time. I went back to the books and finished my shit. I barely ate lunch today, I dunno why. I went to skul and I was so hungry the whole day. The I came back here and my mom made me dinner :P.

Monalisa is right here now - hahaha - sorry I just felt like saying it, the first 4/5 days since I'm here she's been a bitchy, but the past 2/3 days she's been so sweet. She loves me again. I think Gina is kinda jealous cuz she knows I got another one coming, but she must understand that I will love her the same :).

There's someone, I don't understand how, that's getting deep inside my skin and I can't help it. It's driving me crazy... ohh my God... this funny feeling in my stomach.






Goodnight babe...

Suicidal spaceship

Goodnight, how are u Mon?

Me, I'm sumerged in this akwardness, hehe tired but I don't want to sleep. I spent 7 hours doing Mechaninc's today, Paul and I did. Then we, after hoursof looking for something to do, ended up at the park - BULLSHIT. At least I saw some people, Roman, Robert, Cooker... whatever.

I don't feel much like writing I just wanted to pass by and say hi. Sleep tight my love :).


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Some people read this, some people should know that they mean much to me.

2:07 AM Moon... no stars this time.

I'm sorry that I've been gone, but I've had few things to do... like homework. The city is pretty boring these days, like everything to do has been done already turning life into routine, like u've already read this page. Wensday I went to eat empanadas with Paul, was kinda kul. Yesterday I don't even remember everything is blury between guiitar strings, pics, books and pencils. Today... I dunno what to say about today... I saw Lulah, that kinda made me happy.

Actually, I was happy today, I dunno it was a pretty kul day till the second I got home and I realize that I kinda don't fit here anymore. I found my place, and I want to stay there, even tho I can't by now. Situations are turning black and white like an old fashion comic, but there's no hero this time. I'm drowning in my own breath I need to be taken far away, far to somewhere I'd like.