About a faded past

Hello dear blog, I'm sorry for being so lost these past days, my screen got fucked up, but it's ok now, my dad got me a new one just today. Let's make a review of this weekend.

Friday I just don't remember what I did the whole day till it was 4:00 when I got to college to take this class "dibujo y diseño industrial" so far that's my favorite subject this semester. On the night I went to the movies with my japanesse friend and Karla and We saw "The Incredibles", that movie simply rocks... is awesome. Then I took a ride with Amaury and that was it, I got home at 3:something.

Saturday I was like boredsadsuicidalcrazy the whole day. I got up fucking 8:00 in the morning cuz I had this basketball team practice, I did it well, that was what the coach said. He told me about the PuertoRico trip. At 3:30 I went to my guitar class, new interesting class by the way. I got home and my brother was helluva me about going to play some basketball. On the night I went out with ChungGuys, pretty funny as hell. A really nice night. I know it was a nice day I mean everything went ok and all but I was just like I said.

Sunday, everything the same as before, just a last semester sunday day if u know what I mean. I got up early, had lunch with my familly and then we went to Lala's and studied a bit of calculus or well we pretended cuz we were all over the game hahahaha. I have this talk with my japanesse friend I don't really know what she's meaning, or maybe I do but I just don't face it. Pam said the same today, I mean she said the same as my japanesse friend said... but blah! Things will get better or maybe not, but anyways things will get.


Ps...
The more I see YOU... the less I see US.

Two more years of this?

Yeah I know, I've been gone. But is not my fault, well not only my fault I shall say. The projects for school are getting harder and they take more and more of my time every day. Which means that I've had to get up early and work on them, then go to school and when I got back home I'm just tired as hell, but at that moment I still need to get some homework ended. Yup, is fucking hell out here... and there are some people arguing about war and that kindda shit :P. These days have been just the same. I mean about the whole routine thing and that, yesterday I didn't even eat empanadas with Paul, yeah the tradition is broken. It has been the same waking up at 8:30 doing some shit from school, getting there at 4:00 coming back home at 10:00 and then keep on some shit from school.

The only new thing is that with all this work I have now, this pressure, situations are driving me to this spot where I really have to decide if I will keep on this shit or if I should drop school and do something I really feel like doing, but from the heart. Is not that I don't like this shit I'm in... well actually is just that I really don't like it enough. I have to admit that is interesting and sometimes you feel yourself like wanting to learn, but I don't really see myself through time and working on things I'm learning. I'd really love to get into something arts or music, or something like that. I told my mom that today, she knows I'm a forever-artist, it has been myself for 19 years. But she just came up with this stupid thing them parents always say "get something real in what to support your life, then you can learn/do anything you like"... just seems they don't see that I feel it like a waste of my time.

Well blog, I'm off so I can keep on working in this other essay I have. Love you :*


Ps...

Remember that issue I told u about?
It's done... and well done. :) And I'm glad, I was there where dunnoing about how to act.

Inertiatic...

Dear blog...

Today was an awesome day, I mean it.. the whole day was perfect. I didn't matter that I went to bed late as hell, it didn't matter that I didn't sleep at all, I woke up at 8:30, I was going to the beach with Amaury, Anyoli and Gabz. Amaury picked me up at 10:00 and then we picked up Gabz and her sister (Laura). Then we picked up Anyolie and went to the supermarket :P.

We went to Embasy, the beach was great, big waves, cold water, hot sun, not crowded, perfect. Gabz's sister is nice and funny, I had a good time with her. I saw Paul, Virgy and some other friends at the beach. I played football too, hehehe. It was a one-day-do-it-all :P. I got to Santo Domingo at 6:something. We left Laura at home and went to eat some HotDogs. Then I got home and here I am.

I finished this essay for school and got almost all my homework done. I'm kinda sleepy and shit, but I just don't want to sleep right now. I'm tired.. :) but somehow deep inside I'm happy cuz today was a good day.

bye Blog.


PS...

1st : To you... you that have been around my mind, my heart, my life for about a year and twenty-three days. Thanx for an amazing friendship, thanx for being such a great person. I love you a lot and I always will. I hope you get the best of things cuz you deserve it, you just need to get straight on them things you want. (cow)-ah!

2nd : To you... I know you read this sometimes, so this is why I'm posting this few words in here. You're someone great, you're beautiful and smart, so easy to talk, so easy to love. I'm sorry for everything I did that broke you. I'm sorry for turning your life into such a mess, and I know you just can't get it now, but I think it's better this way. Although you feel like I'm gone, I'm not... I'm just watching your sleep - Try not to drool -_-"

3th: Yeah, something happened. But I've made mistakes and I've learned from them. Lesson number one: There are a few things you can't say in your blogspot.

A night in California

Hi blog...

I'm so happy today, I just don't know why... the only thing I know is that I'm happy as hell. Yesterday I went out with the guys, we had dinner and then we went to DrinksToGo. We talked shit about sizes and other stuffs and listened to some \m/ thing. Like 1 or 2 hours later I received this call from my japanesse friend telling me she wanned to see me and that she'll get there.

In my way to meet her I saw this ghost, this girl... she, she that used to make me shake... she that used to make me hers... it was nice to see her, it was really nice in fact. She is kinda pretty but sad now though, I dunno. She just doesn't seem to smile the same. I have to admit I've been afraid for months about that moment, there where I'd have to meet her again, but I faced the seconds really though. Maybe I'm just in love again.

After some minutes of talking the guys decided to leave Drinks, but I felt kindda weird leaving Lei alone, so I just stayed. We talked and dunnoed for like 20mins or something, then we got to Falafel, hehehe the witch! - It was nice all way long, then Amaury called me and picked us up. We got home. :) nice night huh?

Ohh, I love u sooO!!!

Turning days into words.

Hello... couple of days without posting. Did you miss me Blog?

Well, Last time I wrote was Tuesday so I'm starting this on Wednesday. My PC connection got fucked up and I didn't have time to fixed it up till today. Wednesday I did it as usual, ran like 5 kms and then I had class. Each day I want more that shit over. I'm really taking it serious to drop it and switch stages. Thursday was an OK day, due to my lack of internet I spent a nice time with my brother, then I had college again.. and I got freaking mad. Friday, was holiday and me and my family went out and have some fun. Hahaha playing football at the mall with my bro is the best thing ever, hahaaha. After that we played some basketball. The night was nice, I saw my Japanese friend and this friend of her, I laughed a lot. Then I went to 8Doors with Amaury, and got home pretty late.

This days have been normal, but not. OK but sad... I don't know.

"...How did u get so close to me (8)."

Finding the way back to lost.

Today I was OK, I ran this morning, this time 6 kms. I came home and got this call from this place.. hehehehe great news :P. Then I practiced some guitar and had some food. At 4:00 O'clock I went to school. "Computos" can be such a boring subjects if you know everything they'll say about it already. Then I got this subject that I really like, "Dibujo y Diseño Industrial"... but the teacher didn't show up so it was free time. I stayed a couple of hours there with some friends, nice time, nothing awesome but OK.

Maybe tomorrow I'll play some basketball or something. I dunno I need to do something different, college is taking life out of my living. I hate the routine.

Switching stages, Radi and Cris have this coming back trip tomorrow... so I'm wishing them guys a nice fly.

Ciao blog. :*

Gimme a 360 days year vacation.

ARG!!!! I went to college today, it was awful my teachers sucks, the subjects sucks, the only nice things were my friends. I HATE COLLEGE, I HATE IT, I HATE IT!!!!

Ok, now that I got my Anger Managed :P I woke up at 7 oclock today. I made this routine about running each day a few Kms. I ran 5 Kms and I was aitte, Hehehe. There's nothing much to say, I practiced guitar and uhmmm I dunno, my day was college from 4:00 to 10:00, yeah I know... FUCK!!!!

I'm phone talking with my japanesse friend now, so I'm off... Bye Blog :*

Sixty-seven hours later.

Hello Blog!

I don't understand why I get so mad about nothing lately.

Yesterday I went out to this Ariel's Bday thing, in vain. Non of the guys and girls went, so the shit was blah!. Like 30 minutes after I was in Rio, Kathy called me all of a sudden and she said "where you are? I'm coming for you, I wanna see you." We went to this friend of her that's such a great guy, friendly as hell. We had a good time there. Then she took me home like at 1.30 and we spent almost an hour and 30 minutes at my condo's parking lot, talking. Man it was like the whole three-years-not-talking conversation, it was the best that could happened to me this new year. I'll never forget about last nite, it was just like the old times :). Then Kathy left and the guys got home so we stayed outside blahblihng and blahblihng.

I called this girl like three or four times, she didn't pick it up. I really wanned to hear her voice but... things aren't always the way we want them to be, right?

Now today was fucking hell at the time I had to be up. I tried million ways to avoid the waking but my mom kept calling my name. We went out and had lunch. I got home and slept three hours and then my mom woke me up again, we went to buy my stuff for college and my brothers stuff for school. It was OK all the way, till I got home and almost killed my little brother, lol.

This has been sixty-seven hours later, I'm such a mess. this is such a... disaster. Ciao :*

7:00... and some minutes to write.

Yesterday I came home pretty late and I didn't feel exactly like posting about my day, so the lastnite post will be today's post :)...

I went to school at 4.something and got this class that seems to be quiet interesting. Then I spent a few minutes in my dad's office printing some shit, including Cedric's book ;). The nite was good, till the moment I got this few not-nice-words with a friend that's really important to me. I'm learning that maybe I should stay quiet more often and stop saying things that although they're true and careful at the end just hurt and break... I'm sorry.

I went out with Gab and Amaury, all of a sudden. We went to Falafel... I got you on my mind :(:)... Then we took a walk to the park and had some "quality" time with some friends, hahahaha. I saw this girl that maybe hasn't ever been there, haha but it was nice to see her and talk to her, in fact I didn't know she knew my name :P. Then we took Gab home and we went all the way back to 8Doors. Some fun - some talk - some dance - cool time. I needed, I was about to blah! since she were sort of far. I got home at 4 O'clock.

A nice day? Maybe. But I wasn't really sure about the whole Me&You thing. But today... today is a nice day all the way. Good luck with that dance baby :* ...te kiero mucho mi amiguita japonesa.

Few words about few things.

Yesterday night, I started to write something... but I just didn't end it. Maybe I was too tired, or maybe it was the weather, who knows. The day ran as usual as this week has been, just chilling at home, whithout a chance to go out cuz of the rain. At least I got like 2 chapters more from this book Im reading and I also practiced some guitars. Today I'm back in college, I wish my teachers'd be nice and that. I'm on 9 subjects or something near, this semester is gonna be hell. But I have to do it that way if I wanna fly to the States the whole summer.

Switching subjects, I've been writting some things, it seems the desire and passion are back. Lot of days with bounch of ideas but without any will of expressing them, or something. Maybe is just the weather again. I just love coldish days.

Well my house is a mess cuz their like changing the doors and all that shit, pretty noisy and dusty, so I'm leave this here, maybe I'll post something tonite. :* Bye Blog.

End of moments... (Before)

It's been such a boring day, with the rain and all. Something near 6.30 I went out and had a nice walk, all of a sudden. When I got back home I was same or maybe more bored than before. Have you ever been there, right there where you want to do something about something but you just can do nothing, and all that's left is to write...

The stars have made their move

the sun has deserted the stage

the moon it's taking it's place... the play.

Literally we wish we could change courses

cause we get stuck and left behind

everything falls to pieces, and...

everything seems to care, but...

the broken sentences and crumbled paper said it all

the fact of "can't"... an act that rest in our hands

"you could make your own way" they say

but some things are unavailable to change

this third hand... priceless but useless

not even it's shoulder... not even to cry...

the stars have made their move

they're just setting things up to set fire

tears roll down space and time

as she ever cares about the stars

but she never cares about the stars at all.

Talking to silhouettes of time...

This has been through my head since the last time we angry talked, but I've been dunnoing about saying it. I think I'm losing the touch of touching and make kneel. I don't want to lose you this way... I don't want to lose you in anyway. Maybe some things are not full explained and we're just lying in different spots of the iceberg. Maybe is that and I hope it is. The time is passing by and we're getting farther... what we'll do when distances become longer than what walking can take?

I'm the only guilty, it's all my fault, I'm sorry for everything I've said and I've felt. You're the one lying in bed, I'm the one having fun. Falling in love shouldn't be something I'd be doing, I forgot I was reserved just to be the best of friends, the guy who knows how to listen and how to hug. I'm not able to love someone deeper than friendship, my world is not up to that. I'm sorry it took me so long to realize this and that I was so stupid for not showing I care... and I care, I'll snatch my heart with all its feelings, or I'll do something like that.

I wish I could forget things that I'm feeling inside the skin, but I can't. I wish I could turn back time and avoid my heart of feeling things I'm feeling, but I can't. I wish I could change the words and make them mean something different. I wish I could make u understand that I'm not into loosing you or changing you... I wish I could make you understand that you're the same person you were two or three months ago.

Say a few more words... make it hurt.

October's Stars in January sky.

Hello blog...

Last time I wrote something was Saturday, but I didn't write anything about the day or life. I just sat here and let my fingers spit out raw anger, for which I think I owe you.

Well, first of all January 7th was Robert's bday. At first it was cool and chill, then Amaury got mad, who the hell knows why and things started to turn grey... then Amaury turned OK again (Yeah I know he's crazy) and things were funny, hahahahaha right kids? :-P ... I got home at 4.something and like I told you before, I got this message.. and the story goes on.

Saturday was a weird day, first I woke up pretty early, something like 10... I had breakfast, then I wrote things you can read above :P. Something near 2.00 I went to my guitar class, but it was in vain cuz the teacher wasn't there. I got back home, played some basketball. The nite was pretty kool, MainArtery's CD release. The shit was awesome, Agatha fucking rocked my face, I've forgotten that Tommy has that voice. Main Main Main, well it was awesome nuff said, and I really got nice pix. I was with my Japanese friend Lei Sam :P hahahahaha and I (heart) her :*. Then we went to Falafel... got some vegetarian food :) and we ended at 8Door, like every rockscene guy in this country :P.

Sunday, I don't even remember how I got awake, but I just got. The day passed OK. In the night I went to Andresito's house :) it was his bday and we got spaghetti - Maaan I ate alooooot! It was nice to see Lea, Rosa and the other girls :) my sweet little sisters. Domino can be fun if you play with ElBaba, hahahahahahaha. I got home at 12.something and I talked to my Japanese friend till 4 or something, like everyday (heart). Today things went as usual, some basketball, some fun and some talk. Kids start classes tomorrow which means no more latenitetalks :P hehe. Well I have to wake up pretty early tomorrow so I'm leaving, enough writing for just one day. Love you Blog... and love you too myfreakingjealousekoalafriend.

The other side of the same side.

Hold me and give me another top kiss
play sway and make me smile
few more seconds or maybe a couple of lines
still can't feel the beating of your heart
some of us stare at the outside picture
and some like you stare at snow over the window
so looking at the same place and time
we're holding on different views
broken portraits and broken glass
would you look at my eyes one more time?
let's turn the world in reverse
so we can have the whole Me&You again.

If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar.

Yesterday I got home pretty fucking late, something near 4.something and the first thing I saw was this msg on my mailbox. A letter with a few angry tears and pieces of broken believings. Well, I'm human and I can also break hearts, eventho' I never meant to break something at all.

Anger filled my lungs and brain, but hell-state-of-mind is not an excuse, right? I'm supposed to be the hardest fence, I support you and you mess it up... not like one or twice but tons. Whatever, I'm not blaming you, and you're not a bad person, and it's not your fault, and I love you still and the next time I have to save your ass from something/someone I'll do it.

I could also pretend nothing happened, and maybe you weren't getting this things the way you're... I wasn't mad at the fact of you speakable mouth, I was mad at your stupidity. It's not something easy to care about you and have things done to get the care-thing done too and sometimes you just make it harder. I want you to realize that the shit doesn't affects me, I'm not the bulls eye on this.

Maybe I should have erased my post once things got back to OK, but that's not me and you know it. I'm not the kind of guy who hides things just to make others happy or to lie to them. I'm not this guy who tells you something just to put a smile up your face. If I tell you something is cuz it's true and you fucking know it. I have had you to read it, I WANTED you to read it... cuz it's the only way I've found you to come up and think about things you do.

Best friends means I pulled the trigger

Best friends means u get what u deserve

Piano from another room.

Hello dear blog. Yesterday was a nice day, I played some basketball and practice guitar, the useal thing. During the night we went to ParkeoBar because Lui is traveling to Orlando, Fl. Lot of jokes, lot of smiles, lots of fun... DrunkPaul rocks hahahaahahahaha and this girl got drunk - She can get you on your nerves when she just start talking and never stops.

AND NOW!!! about you girl, the next time I'm knowing something about some guy breaking your heart, I'ma stay quiet. If I do something for you, don't mess it up. GEEX!!! This time you're alone. BLAH!

"I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies. (8)"

These days...

I've been gone 4 days. Sorry, I didn't forget about you... I've just been busy. Someone has been kinda lost too, Pam where have you been girl?

...Naw getting back on this bizz, I've been playing basketball, practicing a lot. I hope I make the team and go to PR this month. I've been also practicing guitar, since my classes will start this next Friday. I tried out my voice today, man I'm getting mad good, I think I've never reached the notes I reached today. Sometimes life can be such a great something. Anyhow, I wish she was at home to talk a bit. It seems those late nite talks are becoming daily chores for me and my heart. I'm loving her.

"I'm turning from you, I'm turning from you... I'm taking it back, so colors don't turn from black to blue (8)!!! lalalala"

Switching years just like gears. (Kissing 2004 Goodbye)

Today...

Today has been such a nice day. I spent the whole morning in bed, then I was on the phone with Massiel. Well, apparently that's the only thing I do these days. If someone is falling in love, I hope it doesn't end with a broken heart or something.

I saw Napoleon Dynamite by the way, it's such a great movie. My brother liked it as well. However, today is December 31st, which means this is the last day of the year. Lots of "I love you", lots of "I'm yours", lots of "I miss you", tons of love showing today... and lot of them are really not worthy. My mom is finishing the dinner and it smells delicious, I can't wait.

AW!! Jenny IM me just right now... I was wondering where has she been. Wow my MSN is such a mess right now, lot of people IMing. WTF it's NEW YEAR's eve for Chrissake!!!

"Ten seconds left until midnight,

nine chances to drown ourselves in black hair dye,

eight faces turned away from the shock,

seven windows and

six of them were locked,

five stories falling

forever and ever,

three cheers to the mirror now there are

two of us can we have

one last dance."

I wish u guys a broken heart and a happy new year :)