...but home is nowhere.

Hello blog, how have u been?

I woke up too early today because I had/have to study Calculus. I studied the first unit and then I practiced guitar. I got to skul at 4:00 and did nothing inside the classroom, I had this boring Science class. After that I had calculus, at least today class was fast and easy. Then I got Science Lab, that subject get me on nerves, the teacher can't be more of an asshole. I got home at 10:something early and did nothing.

Hey ur customized, it fits u good. I love the way u look now, since I spent like two hours trying to make the background gets into a position. Somehow HTMLing got me into a kinda goodish mood, I mean I've been so weirddo the whole day I can't even stand myself - It sucks. I'm about to roll to bed now, I feel tired and shit... catcha later.

Exsistentialism on a mindcrash

About today, I woke up at 8:00 and I just don't know why. I spent the whole morning just doing nothing but playing guitar, and playing with Monalisa - She's so big and powerfull by the way. Then I ate almost nothing, cuz these days I feel myself like not wanting to eat at all. I went to skul at 4:00 and took this "ISC-Lab" that's pissing me of more and more. After that I took my "Dibujo" class - Almost unbelievable - and the teacher exceed his limits, he gave us like two complete hours of class. I came home at 8:something, did some homework and read a bit.

I got into this crazy idea of loosing weight, I mean I'm always in the mood but I dunno this latez I'm believing it harder. Switching stages the skul is ending, just 2 more weeks and that's all, I'm happy but horryfied, I mean this is the spot where all the teachers get crazy and let like a thousandbillion things to do and shit, without counting them exams. I'm really tired about college, I knew this won't be an easy kill but it's even harder than what I thought - Whatever. I think I'm getting sic, I feel myself like blah and that. I thanks that it came after springbreak and hope it won't last long. I'm going to sleep... I need to get some rest, bye.

It stole a smile...

Hey blog, I was so close to drop it and not post for today since the server seems to be slow as hell. I woke up late today, I was exhausted, maybe it was the pool and shit. I dunnoed a lot and only ate just a bit. I got to school at 4:00 and had my Science test grade, I got a 17/20, pretty nice. Then I went ot eat pizza with Paul - hehehe - and after that we took calculus. I had "ISC" exam today - like I care, like I need to study - haha it was a sure 20/20 thing. I walked all the way back home, Pierina is a nice company, round the hood I saw Georges and some guys, nice to see them.

Kathy went to my skul today, it was great to see her, to talk to her, to hug her. I dunno everytime I'm round her I just get fucking happy. She spent like one hour with me and it was just like twentysix hours or something. I wish she just get on taking right choices about things in her life, and I know she loves her carreer but she has to care about herself as well - blah! I love her.

I recieved news about my trip, it's all settled already, things are done. So now u know fucking May 5th, get here soon.


Ps...
If u break a heart, I'll break a face... and it's a promise.

The end of a TwentyFourHours Sun week.

Hi blog, sorry I didn't post anything yesterday but I felt like notposting, I was kinda sad. I spent the whole day between dunnoing and watching some movies. At first I got mad because every plan I had about the day got fucked up, and something near 10:00 Amaury picked me up and we went out with Gabb just to do nothing. Well we ate pizza and went to everyplace in the city that could attach us or something but nothing came up. Today I woke up really early to be sunday, I ate "chinesse" with my familly - hehehe, finally - then I went to this club and hung out with some school friends. Anything outlined, everything chilled and shit. Tomorrow back to bizznezz - I just wish the semester's over for Chrissake.

Hehehe I spent the whooole week wanting to get wasted or something, haha shit's funny the only thing alcohol I got was a zippo I took today. This week was weirddo, but to be honest it wasn't that bad. I'm off I think I'll get some bedlove now... ciao babe :*


Ps...
Hope u just liked it...

Viernes al Sol...

Hello blog... Today I went to the beach with Amaury and Gabb. I woke up at 8:15 and took a bath, had all my things done and awaited till 9:30 for Amaury. We went straight to Embassy, at first the place was nice, calm and quiet, but then people started to arrive like one mase man, sort of a stamped. Something near 2:00 we decided to go to JuanDolio, no joking here, we spent like 35 minutes just trying to go out from Embassy's parking lot. After that we got into a beautiful piece of beach that Gabb said, it was wonderful - The sand, the waves, the water, the beach itself - Perfect. Something near 5:00 we came back home so I got at my place something near 6:30.

I believed that we were going out or something, but nothing showed up, so I stayed at home, just doing nothing and talking on the phone. I'mabout to roll to the blankets so I'm off it'll be a nice-hard day tomorrow so I better go to sleep.

Ps...
U weren't there when u were supposed to be there. U dessim I.

In a Q-bus...

I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
Strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy.. happy
I lay my head onto the sand
The sky resembles a backlit canopy
With holes punched in it
I'M counting UFOs
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment I am happy.. happy
The world's a roller coaster
And I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care
But my hands are busy in the air saying: I wish you were here

I wanted u so there...

A notsonormal day.

Hello blog, I did muchnothing today, I mean I did a lot of things but they came to be nothing. I woke up at 11:00 and I went to George's to pick up a soccer ball, but George's brothere wasn't there so neither the ball. Anyways I stayed there and chilled a bit with the guys, then I went back home and had some food. At 3:00 I went to Emil's to prepare this little thing we're working on - The Horror Show - together with some friendz. After that Emil took me to Amaury's and we hung around.

I think we're going to the beach tomorrow. I hope it nice, someting funny and unusual. I wish I could get the soccer ball. I'm off now, bye blog.


Ps...
Don't u dare to fuck with the Fulton-Rockaway boys.

Empty moments... Impossibles to let go...

Hi blog...

Today I was mad... but then I went out with Amaury in a quest for somethingtodo and it turned into something kOoL. First I woke up at 12:45 and jumped from my bed to my brother's bed, placed "ClockWorkOrange" in the DVDplayer and remained there till 2:somethinglate. After that - And here is where I start to get mad - I went to college, because my stupidasshole teacher said he was about to give us the grades we got on the exam, well guess what... he didn't, and that jerk said he wasn't feeling like giving classes. My moma picked me up and we went to get some things at this place I dunno, then I went back to college and awaited there till 8:00 just to find out that my other bigasshole teacher wasn't feeling like giving classes either. BLAH!!!

I came here and did nothing, got infront of the PC and dunnoed, then switched to my room and started "ResidentEvil Apocalypse" but I didn't even get to the middle part. Erika told me she was going out so we met out there. We went to the park - BLAH!!! - And then Amaury and I took a ride around the city, just to end up at a Gas Station, ate a couple of sandwishes and drive back home. In the coming back we got this Snoop's song on the radio, nice shit. I'm off to the pillows, catcha later~! :*


Ps...
You should be here now...

"Hey dude, u know where can I get some cronic?"

Sup blog? ...I'm ok, I just saw this movie "Harold and Kumar go to the White Castle" hahaha that movie's so fucking funny. U never imagine a dude asking for cronic at Princeton, hahaha, or prepgirls doing fucking shitwar. That movie really got my mood upleveled.

Looking backwards my day was really nice today, I mean I slept well, woke up late, ate good homemade food, went to college and just got one class. By the time I got here it was something near 6:30 so I got online and did some things. Right at 9:something I went and rent some movies with my mom, and that's it. I just have 2 more hours of class, and I'm free for the week. I'ma blaze some shits up, hahaha - Springbreak here I go :) - And soon the semester will meet May and it'll be over, then: Boston here I go!!!!! YAYY!! ;)... Catcha later babe.


Ps...
Mario, thanx for the movie advice.

You never feel the rhythm till the beat has just begun

Well blog, I'm officially on springbreak vacation - Or hollyweek whateva - The thing is that I'm done with my science exam, and I'm not playing books till next monday. What about the other classes u have u said? ...I'm sure taking them but not paying any attention :P. I think I just flamed the exam, I did fucking great.

My day started at 9:00 with some growls and music sound, I took a bath and reviewed the material. When I got everything covered up I practiced guitar and then I took a nap. I got to school at 4:00 and did the exam doggystylesexlike :P. Then I had two full free hours because we ain't getting calculus this week. After that I got the most boring class I have, "ISC", like I'm not tired of hearing about Windows/Office and all that crap. They should exonarate me all that bullshit, I could even flame the teacher - Even dancing electroboogie, right Paul?. When I got home I ate diner, moma cooked for me tonite :). That's all... I'ma keep on dancing HeadAutomatica so.. bye sweetie :*

Your mouth over my mouth...

Hey blog, how have u been the last two days? ...I've been ok, not fine but ok. Yesterday I had practice, I fucking did the court, I should say I was unstopable. Then I got home and ate just to jump back to the streets, I had my guitar class and then I went to the library... I studied for my science exam, the one I have tomorrow.

The night... well I need a new paragraph just for last nite. I went to this punkrock show at L'Abuela, Mulligan fucking rocked everybody's face. Melisa just growls like a tigger, it seems she'll bitecha or something. They played: "Figura", "CoverStory", "Anacruza", "La vena", another song I don't know... and then Belvedere's "Slavestothepavement"... it was really nice. Pericles did it well, I like the new songs - hehe I got them on a Demo. But u know how's Pericles live, more show than rock. The other bands... well, it's 2005 and they're still on not tunning the fucking instruments - WHATEVER!!!

This morning the waking up was Vietnam. I family ate out , then went to this activity my highschool had at this Idon'tknowhow'scalled cinema - It was nice. I came home at 5:00 and studied again - I even feel like a scientist myself - Palulo came and studied too. We were supposed to go to this Cristobal goodbyething, but I didn't... he did. I'm kinda worried about the test so I stayed and studied. I'm off... catcha :*


Ps...
*March 19: Happy Belvday T'all.
*Have a nice trip Chris, next time we see each other it'll be englishlike.

Trying the "Suicide for dummies" Kit

Hello blog... my day was colorless, so weak and empty. It started at 10:00, I got up, took a shower and started to study science. At 4:00 I had "Dibujo" but the teacher didn't show so, we didin't have it. I spent like 1 hour waiting for my mom and when I got home I went back to books. I went to Falafel and saw Paola performing. I met this girl named Yanina or something, pretty nice, since I have like four semesters seeing her. How Paola did? I don't know I only got one song and it was ok. Uhmm what else? ...I think that was my whole day.

I'm sorry about the nocalling thing, I mean it was my fault. But I was just busy with the study shit. I know we have to talk, and we will... I've been calling u like round 2 hours and u don't answer, I hope it's because ur phone is broken or something. I love u... (L)

You're my own Nicole April.

Hi there...

I heard you were passing round my school today. I wanted so much to see you, just to bring back the old days. Remember?
...me and you, the gang, the guys, but most of all the "me-and-you" thing. Maybe I've said this like a million times, but I dunno, I feel like saying it a stars-number time... You're the most special person I've ever met, one of those few that just changed my life. Sometimes I feel like wanting you round here, ohh well, to be honest... I need you so much, I need things to be just like the old days. Me and you yelling "let's face them war-like." - No one there bricking our popping. - Well they were some trying but they never could. They used to picture me so though and hard, they used to picture you so cold and brave... but... You used to picture me so calm and charming, and I used to picture you so sweet and tender. Like playing our own self-play, with our own characters and our own stage. Living so private, speaking foreign language in hushed tones so no one could understand. I miss that so hard, like I'm going out for nothing. I've looked for in so many skins, but you're never there... and I know it's my fault, although we're over the done facts, although we're so OK now...

I feel like I destroyed my own column and that I'm cutting myself with the splinters...

NikO....

Ps..

Don't worry, I'll survive. The other half is still beating... <3

Just an homogenic sound...

This morning something woke me up, it was so frustrating because I was still sleepy but I couldn't go back to sleep. Monalisa was up but not noisy, she was fine. I picked up the books and started to study, but right 5 minuntes after I dropped it and picked up Gina. I spent the whole morning on that, switching from books to Gina. Till I saw Lula going online and we started to talk and shit, hehe each day I talk to her she seems nicer.
My classes started at 4:00 with this exam, but it was ok - I think I got a 20/20. Then I spent like two hours just doing nothing but talking with Jochs, LauraA., Jv, Jamps, Grace, and some others... not in the mood to mention em all. After that I had this "Seguridad Industrial" class, we had to make an exposition, but my group was exonerated - Yeah, that was cOoL.

I got home with my mood upleveled till I saw this Lakers vs Heats game, fucking Atkins gotta keep on dribbling with the fucking epileptic like moves?? ...SHIT!!! this is getting me ill, I mean aren't them inspired to win a shitty game. BLAH!!!!! Bye Blog...

Ps

...
Happy bday Erika.

Mirror meets fist...

Hell what the fuck is happening!!! DUDE, this country is burning, it's so fucking hot in here and I'm not singing a Nelly's song. OK now, switching scenaries can u imagine me waking up at 8:00 just to get into science books, I was studying the whole morning. At 4:00 I went to college and did my best science class ever, I was reading Omerta the full two hours, lol. Then I got Calculus, it was like "puff!! - Class's over". My Lab class was shit, it seems my teachers are tired of the semester just as me, some of them don't show and the others are just using half of the class time - I like that. We ate empanadas today, Laura, Aida, Cano, Jorge and I... Paul had a rehearsal with OSM or something.

Tomorrow I have a "VidaCristiana" exam, and I hate to have to study the fucking boring book, but I even hate those stupid exams even more. I dunno... grrrr pleaaase end fucking semester end fast!!!

I was born a troublemaker...

Hi blog... Yesterday I was... uhmm hell I can't remember, I swear to God I can't remember at all. Today I got up early cuz I had to study and practice, it was ok. I'm done with one science lesson, which means I have one lesson less to study for the exam. Omerta is a great book, is just so easy to imagine everything it says, just like picturing things done on ur own past, Mario Puzo is a great writer. I did till 4th chapter just today - Less than a week and they're long chapters. I got my ISC-lab class today, it was bored as hell, worst than ever since the MSN Messenger didn't want to log in. My "Dibujo" teacher didn't show up today - AGAIN - I'm getting tired of it, I mean I'm not complaining but the shit is that I don't wanna get reposition classes on saturdays or someting. After that I got home and I've been studying since that moment, something near 7:00.

I've been with this idea through my head since sunday, I've like a couple of sentences that I could develop and shit, but I just want to get them straigt. I talked to Lula today, nice talking by the way... she's fun - Talking about that, Eileen where have u been?. Kobe lost a game today, against Iverson by the way, I hope the make the playoffs, they're ranked right now, but they will need some help to stay there... GO LAKERS!!! - I'm off now, see ya in the rye - lol.


Ps...
I have this something to say... but I don't remember what it is now... hahaha Science is killing my senses.

She's living in Amsterdam

Hi dear blog. I'm sorry about not posting yesterday, but I was kinda tired and I have to admit that Omerta really takes u to another world. I woke up at 11:00 and then had meal at home. In the afternoon I went to this game I had - Yeah we won. Then I got home like at 7:30, had dinner, read a bit of science and then I was on Omerta's pages. I couldn't sleep shit last night - Thanx mosquitos. I woke up at 7:00 because I had to be at college at 8:00 to be at a factory at 9:00. The factory was bored, We got late and altough the guy that showed it to us was a nice guy I got hell bored. Uhmmm now I'm here, playing with Monalisa and about to practice.

I wish I didn't have to go to school. I'm tired of this semester, May 5th get here soon. I'll post something tonite, I promise :*

Hands can't astound the wall...

Hi blog, my day was normal all the way. I was so happy I dunno why, but then all of a sudden I got like sad or something. I went to this TKR and CappouSessions show, I dind't like Cappou at all, I mean I've never liked them but today I hated them the most (but they did it well). I went to Falafel with my Japanesse friend and Karla, had some fun and u know laughed a bit. I dunno what it is but fucking warmth is killing my senses, every second it's get hotter and hotter...

I had this awakedream while coming back home, I was on a cab and the chauffer was this crazyface look like guy... it seemed that he was on herbs or something, he was driving mad fucking fast - Not even Zafari. All of a sudden I start to think that we were gonna crash and I dunno I felt my heart just beneath my teeth... had this cold breeze not inside but between my lungs and I'm barely breathing. It's weirddo as hell. I'ma get a pillow, bye.


Ps...
Yeah, I'm sad again... I think is because of doing the same, I'm so tired of every fucking place in this fucking city - Yeah I'm talking like a Yorkie.

Spinning like a world...

Good morning Blog, I just woke up and got out from the bath. I went bed really late last night, I was on the phone with my Japanesse Friend. My day started at 9:0o, I did nothing but playing guitar the whole morning, at 4:00 I went to my "Vida Cristiana" class - I just read "Omerta" the whole class. Then I got "Seguridad" fucking waste of time, cuz we did just nothing, yesterday was a slackday.

Today I'ma get "Dibujo" - I hope the teacher shows up today, he hasn't showed up this passed week. Then I'll go to Georges's, is his bday!!

!!!!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEORGES!!!!!!

I luv cha man :), although we almost never hang anymore, u're still one of my bestfriends guy. Hope cha get every piece of living u want to get, never stop dropping it like's hot kid. I mad fucking luvcha, I own u like a hundred things and u own me like a hundred bucks :P hahaha!

Garbage message from the telescreen...

Hey blog, I just got home, I was eating empanadas with Paul and Cano - hehe this guy Cano is such a charater, really funny guy. Last night I dunnoed a bit, played some guitar and spent some time on the phone. This morning it was hell to get up, I mean I dunno how the fuck I got awake at the end. At 10:30 I could release my body from the blankets, I settled my flight date, I'm leaving May 5th, thanx God. Then I got back home and did Gina like 3 hours, really nice.

My classes today were weirdas, I mean every subject took the full two hours of class. I dunno it was kinda hellish. At least at the end we went and got the empanadas, that shit really got my mood up-leveled. Hey, I started the book today, that one I told u about "Omerta" by Mario Puzzo. I just don't know how I got to that book, maybe it was MarsVolta or maybe it was LamofGod... what I do know is that the Prologue really kick ass, so I think it'll be a cool book. I'ma get my eyes over the lines now, catcha later babe.

Back from the dead side.

Wey!! Yesterday I didn't post because I had like a million draws to do. But now I'm done with that. I really like that subjects, is the only homework I enjoy doing. Uhmm yesterday I woke up like at 10:00, practiced guitar, warmed my chords and then made a few sketches for the homework. I went to skul, that althoug it was as same as always, I did enjoy - If u can say that. I got home and I dunnoed a bit, then I went to the drawings.

This morning I woke up helluva early, my mom woke me up to feed Monalisa. Then I couldn't go back to sleep, but it's ok, I finished the homework and dunnoed around. I'ma start reading this book "Omerta", I have a few weeks starting it, but... u know how I've been. Well this last two days I've been a lot better and I'm glad for that. Talk to u later :*.


Ps...
LLEVA CARTONES AJENOS!!! - HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

I'm forever...

Dear blog, today I woke up early and I did some things in the morning. Then we ate home, I mean me and my familly, my granny came too. In the afternoon I was sick of the whole carnival noise so I went to play some basketball. My body must think that I'm crazy or something, I was kinda tired about yesterday and I did court anyway. I got home something near 6:30 and took a bath. I almost fell asleep after that, but I got myself busy playing with Monalisa. Then I took dinner and drank like 15 glasses of coke and lataz I was on the phone with my Japanesse friend.

I'ma roll to bed now, so catcha in the rye :P.

"chinuninuninuninu chinuninuninuninu Chinuninuninuninu (8)"
"tin tin tin tin tin tin tin tin tin tin tin tin tin tin tin (8)"
"trrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr trrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr trrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr (8)"

...and the RollerCoaster crashed

Well Blog, picture this "Saturday night and I'm home", I haven't been home on Saturday night since... I don't even remember. Yesterday we went to Pnut's Crib and had some quality time with some peeps on Jp's bday party. Today I woke up early as hell, I had practice, then I had this class at 2:00 I was helluva sleepy. When I got home at 4:00 my bro asked me if I wanted to play and then all of a sudden I said yes. We played till 7:00 and I got home, took a bath and uhmm just yarayared on the internet. I'm sooo tired, maybe is the week's weight falling over, but who knows. I'm off... I'm sorry I just dropped a little, but I don't feel much like writing. Bye :*.

tonite I'll have to dream u here.... (8)

The screen is getting wider each second...

I'm sorry I didn't drop shit yesterday, I wasn't in the mood. Same thing that've been happening the past days, feeling like my world is crumbling into pieces. I got pretty scared yesterday, I had this adrenalinerush like feeling, u know that one u feel like an empty cube inside the cheste, like u breath and u feel the air ain't filling ur lungs... well that, I dunno why. I went to skul and had this two classes, they were ok. My classmates keep telling me that I'm weirdo lately, but what can I say, I know they wouldn't understand. Lia went to my skul yesterday, it was nice to see her and that, on the night I talked to my japanesse friend.

Monalisa is fine, she's getting big and hairy, so pretty. It doesn't scream anymore, just shhgrawls. My moma is in love with it, hahaha I think she loves it more than I do.

Today I have this "Dibujo" class, I think we have exam or somehing, so I better take a bath and go to skul, catcha later.

About Me&You

We move slow - Moon's orbit dance like

but the scenary switches at speed of light

we cross eyes and fist fight...

silent screaming for a little touch

time tics like on a race and tacs like never ending

while our hands meet and clapse.

We're face to face - We have to face the situation

the adrenaline is spitting motivations

unconscious, our hearts pray for the next second/move

whispering to our lips that meet and kiss.

We move Solar System like on human time

Slow and majesticly...

We planets, playing with the stars.

PS...
March, 03: Happy bday Jamps.

I am in this battleground, lost and waiting to be found.

Well, three days without posting, not that I haven't passed by, or that I've forgotten about u Blog. Matter of fact I've came and tried to post something, but at the end my wills met the wall. These days have been horrible, behind courtains and darkned windows, seems I can't see clearly, seems my feet haven't steped straight. Everything around me is nonsensing me, I hate to be like this, I hate to do this... and the truth is that is coming earlier each time it comes. I mean, now I'm getting to the spot where I feel so impotent, so weak... I need to get my ownself my ownbeing. I wish I could ripp this sking off and switch it with a fullwholenewlife pack. I know this reads so "numetal" but it isn't, from a fullofthingstodo day I'm turning to an empty place, an empty space...
No, is not that, my parents are great... I'm ok with my brothers and friends, it's all about me, it's all about having it all but not being happy. Maybe is all about having a dream and not trying to reach it. Maybe is all about being such the same kind of jerk I've always hated, those I never wanted to became in.

My calculus exam? ...I don't know I was thinking about it today, and watching it from today, I mean now that every hesitating adrenaline about the exam is gone, it seems I did better than what I thought. What I know is that I did better than what everybody said they did. What I did yesterday? ...Same thing I did today, same thing I did monday... going to school, doing homework and yara yara yara. I feel my days so the same, for example today, today could be anyhting, from monday to monya, holly shit it could be even "frionday"...


Ps...
I love u... each centimeter of ur skin, each word from ur mouth... each blink, each beat... everything... u my scapegoat.